After waiting
For so long,
The day
Finally came.
Being together
Where we belong;
Our love
Burning like a flame.

But then our
Perfect world together
Vanished in
My eyes.
The day I found
The letter,
Coming as a
Complete suprise.

Filling up
My head
With such
Shame and guilt.
So many things
That you said,
Damaging all
That we'd built.

Now I feel
Like a fool,
As you still
Control my thoughts.
Listening to
CD's of Jewel,
Tying myself
Up in knots.

But I take
Blame too,
For I let
It diminish.
I should have
Fought for you,
But still I believe
We're not finished.

That was until
Christmas day
When I called
To say, "I care",
Just to make sure
You were okay.
Hearing you hated me;
So hard to bare.

That's the worst
You could do,
Because words
Cut so deep,
Especially since
I still love you;
Dreaming constantly
Of you as I sleep.

Did we
Rush in too soon?
Is that
What went wrong?
Promising each other
The moon;
Trying to create
The perfect love song.

All I know is
What my heart tells me,
And it still
Beats for you.
That gives me
The hope to believe
That our destiny to be
Together remains to be true.

(3/15/2000)